SPM haste

I got 12 days left.

Argh.

Run for the Nation 2009

Today was an incredible day.

Running 5km across Kuching.

We prayed, we sang, we believed.

God, thank you.

And to everyone involved, you guys are fire that keeps the spirit of God burning.

Godspeed. =)

Was I wrong?

Its sunny outside today,
I cover my eyes,
Bright lights form casting those sunlit rays,
And far away in the shade you surprise,

We sat next to each other,
We talk and we laugh and we dance,
Happy was my heart with you near,
For even the storms and seas I did not fear,

Then the sky broke down from above,
Who was he I ask?
You dare not tell,
My emotions fumbled and I fell,

I used to chase after you,
You were like lightning,
Swift and beautiful,
You captured my heart without a moment's rest,

Now here I am close to you,
But you don't see,
Hidden behind the mass of people,
I am unseen,

It was in this park that my fears came true,
That bouquet of flowers in my hand,
Drops and falls on hardened soil,
Who is that whom you held hands?

Sigh.

It was another heartbreak all over again.

My face feels dry,
I touch it,
And surprise was all I could muster,
For no tears, no meaningless drops were found,

Just a heart that was torn too much,
To ever feel the familiar sense of lost,
Long gone with the wind,
I pick up the broken pieces of life.

And leave.



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Author's note: EMONESS MAX!

Phil Wickham - True Love

One of the best voices I heard so far.

Blast! Drumline Battery Battle

Long Forgotten Chances.

"Hey, you okay today?" she asks as she walks into the room. I stop strumming my guitar and put it down to face her with a smile.

"Yeah, never been better!" I try to make my smile seem as genuine as possible, showing my haphazard array of teeth. She frowns.

"You can't lie to me. I know something's up. What is it?" The smile fades away and I bow my head down. She knows me too well.

"I was just thinking...letting my thoughts run wild for a few moments..."

"And with that you suddenly become all sentimental and stuff? C'mon, tell me. " I turn my face to her, my eyes solemn. "Well?"

"Guess I'm just feeling nostalgic thats all," I say,choosing my words carefully. I touch the edge my guitar, moving my finger across the maple body. Gathering my thoughts. "I used to hate those days where I was still involved in the Sports Events they usually hold every other time of the year. The coach would drive us insane with all that training in order to beef us up for the competitions. Right now, I'm missing those days so much." I smile to myself as a few images of those days rushed back.

She looked skeptical. "You? Training?"

I turn to her and grin. "Yeah, I know, hard to believe eh?"

She stifled a laugh. "I just can't see you as a runner man, you just seem too...well, you just don't look like it!"

I pick up the guitar again and pretend as if I was about to lash out at her with it. "And you do?"

She finally laughs. "Hey, who are we talking about here? Me or you? Because if its about me looking like a runner, then you know we could go on for ages." I laugh as well. She had a point there, and arguing with her was a bad idea. Girls tended to have a better flair of words compared to us guys.

"Okay, I get your point. I guess I just can't help it, its like disease. Whenever I see those athletes training out there in the field, I get all caught up in myself. And I sometimes hate it." I sigh. Those days were long gone and I was just too spent to get myself running again. I cover my face with my hands.

"What happened?" she asks. It wasn't like her to sound all concerned suddenly. I myself was surprised.

"A mistake. I made a huge mistake that cost me so much." My face goes blank. That fateful day came rushing back like lightning. "It was raining that night. I was out with a few friends and we were just coming back from a party at some club. We were...well, dead drunk. I know, underage drinking is illegal but I thought maybe just this once...just this once. It seemed like a good idea at the time."

I look out the window. The sky was red with the coming sunset. She sits still, listening.

"It was all fine until the ride back. One of my friends lost control of his car and we were sent crashing into one of the buildings in the housing area nearby. It was...tragic. My other buddies managed to get out with just a few cuts and a nosebleed but I was knocked out. My seat was where the impact of the crash was strongest. All I saw before that crash was a whirlwind of water, glass and blood. Next thing I knew, I was strapped down in the hospital."

"My goodness...I didn't know... " she says. She sits closer. I start to choke on my words. "I'm so sorry..." she whispers.

"Broke my leg in three places. Ribs too. Had a pretty bad concussion. I was out for a year." I curse. I hated that memory. I hated having to stay in the hospital while the other runners had their fun.

"I missed my chance. I missed it by a year." I start to cry. The room is silent. All I could hear was my own pitiful sobs. I suddenly feel her hold my hand. "I made a mistake. Damnit, if I could only get back and fix this, things would be different! But I blew it. I blew it." I throw my guitar away. It hit the floor with a loud bang.

"Hey, its gonna be alright. Trust me." And she laid her head on my shoulder. She still held onto my hand. I could only cry some more.

"I sure hope so," I say. "I really do hope so."

"Have faith." She says."I believe in you."

We sat there for ages. Without a word.

Study Frenzy

SPM's coming up. Gotta focus now. Updates in December most probably. Peace.

Farewell.

I lost a friend today.

Rest in Peace.

Skillet